I was watching this and was suddenly struck by the fact that the Lord asks us to endure hard things to receive the most wonderful blessings. Mary was unmarried, virtuous and yet she still carried the Christ Child. It is amazing to me that she accepted this so willingly. She must have been treated so badly by those who did not understand. She could have been rejected by her family, her friends and her Beloved Joseph. And yet, she said.... " And Mary said, Behold the handmaid of the Lord; be it unto me according to thy word. And the angel departed from her." Luke 1:38
I have been occasionally feeling sorry for myself. I have watched others get pregnant with no difficulties, or held babies I love, only to send them home with their mom's at the end of the day. Adoption is not easy!! You go through so many emotions, You have to be interviewed, you have to lay open your personal life to a stranger, You have to find the money to pay for it.. You have to be patient and wait for someone to choose your family. It can feel like too much sometimes. I have put some of all of that on the back burner while dealing with my mom's health issues and in some ways it was a relief to do so. My younger sis is pregnant, and I am happy for her, but also a little sad for me. I found out recently that some friends adopted and I am happy for them but now curious about their experiences. I guess I am ready to do more to make this miracle happen. I am ready to face hard things to receive the miracle. The Lord requires the best from His servants and sometimes the Very Best can be the Hardest, but I am willing to show myself ready. I guess I am echoing Mary, by asking the lord to make me His Handmaiden, to let it be unto me.. according to His word. Whatever that may be.
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